blogger is down again. luckily i went valerie's house to upload a few pics. im done with uploading bbq and outing with girlfriends pics. im left with jiao jun and zavier's birthday celebration, pics with OG stuffs and anna and primary school outing. i'll blog more later about saying goodbye to 2008 and welcoming 2009 after i come back from theory lesson. I WANT TO PLAY BEAUTY AND THE BEAST AND DISNEY FANTILLUSION!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZAVIER WONG!!

am down with high fever, flu and cough since yesterday morning. im feeling terrible. a more detailed post will be blogged after i recover. anyway, have to thank jiao jun and GG for accompanying me wait for taxi yesterday after band and sihui's panadol and swiss roll. loves!

i've been going out almost everyday for this week. had bbq, band, outing with primary and sec school friends. went for swsy practice just now. was feeling damn nervous before entering the room. sat beside fazilah. joanne didn't come cause she got assigments to complete. the songs they played were diffcult. my sight reading sucks to the core. after sws was a mystery, it'll only be posted tomorrow. all the pics will be up tomorrow so stay tuned! i swear i got around 50 pics to upload.

i don't know what's the fucking problem with me since the day i got back my result. my mood swings like i don't know what. i can be hyper this minute but feeling irritated by any small trival matters then next minute. seems like putting on a fake smile and actting like what i used to be is something i do everyday. im actually lying that im alright. ahh sweeling, just shut the fuck up. stop all your bloody nonsense and accept the fucking fact you bitch.

22nd december, happy birthday jiao jun!
will have a proper update about what have been going on for the past few days when my blogger doesn't give me any problems.have tons of pics to upload; last day of work pics with anna,OG stuffs and other promoters,jiao jun's birthday celebration, outing with vivian,melissa. there's gonna be more pics added into my comp i think. there's christmas celebration with gossip gang tomorrow and bbq the day after. HAPPY ADVANCE MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!

i alright now, don't worry people.=D i have open and straighten up my thinking. i only have myself to blame. if not for my carelessness, thing would not have happen. i was too engross in talking on that day and forgot to double check everything. hence, bringing in my notes. i shan't let myself have any chance of getting retain again, NEVER! the actual reason why i choose to stay back is because of band and i want to prove to people that i really didn't cheat. yes, im stubborn. anyway, i wanna thank those people who really cheered me up. girlfriends, thanks alot! i love you all.


had theory lesson yesterday after band. ate maggie mee at melissa's house. watched xin hua duo dud kai then took 178 home with charmaine and zavier. that bastard friend purposely don't let me alight at my shop.then i had to alight at jurong point. accompanied him to wait for his bus. his jokes are seriously lame and somehow, i find it funny. i was so stupid to fall for his trap everytime.lol.
work today was quite fun. another handsome guy came to work here and everybody including judy, xiao lin and me went crazy about him.i didn't abandon my customer because i want to see him lor! i thought they're those who won't buy and are just looking around.lol. anna came at 1.30. chatted all the way to 8 then knock off with anna. trained home.

got back my results today. as expected, i fail my eng. i got B3 for all except for eng. i started crying after they announce that we can take back our results. ya, im feeling very nervous after stepping into the school hall. 10 people in my class coulden't make it and that's the only class with people not able to make it. i cried like i just lost both my parent. cried all the way home. met vivian in school as she's collecting her result then to her house. met valerie, nicholas and chun cheong at lakeside mrt station after that. mun wah joined us at clarke quay. went for dinner then game cafe after that. bernard joined us after valerie left. i had lots of fun there, putting all my troubles behind. home at around 10.30 then went ntuc extra with mun wah and bernard to check out how it looks like. homed after that.

i've made up my mind.retain is my choice. i can prove them wrong and i can give myself a chance of scoring even better. who knows i may become the top scorer next year. mai siao siao hor.LOL! thanks to those who try to cheer me up, im feeling much better already. good friends are those who won't leave you behind when you're facing a problem. they'll be there cheering you up or trying ways to help you solve the problem. i knew who is my best friends now.



seriously, they made my day. not forgetting about valerie, melissa and those who called and care for me (zavier, wei lun, sook yee, cheryl,etc.)
Goh Wan Ni! i want another bouquet of flowers.LOL! i love you damn lots!

had a small mini birthday celebration for joey toh. guess she'll go crazy if she see her candid pics here,lol. band today. i love and dislike my band sometimes. i hate it when they don't help the others but only themselves or their own group of friends. i love them when they i also don't know how to say.lol! but overall, i love my band! zavier was late and i waited at the coffee shop for him for around 20 mins in the morning. got phek chek and went to wait for jiao jun at the bus stop. nevermind, i accept his apology. after band was fun! played saprono sax and trumpet. i want to play saxophone! went bubble tea shop with olga,charmaine, ruiheng, christopher,nicholas and zavier. homed after that. oh ya, i got my EAGLES award last nights. i was damn happy when i open my letter box and read the letter. this is the first time i got this kind of award, lol. i was jumping with joy but dad just reply me a 'so?' phek chek! lol.

joey's birthday party
PeiXin Primary School Concert.


everytime when my grandma calls, i don't know what to say to her.
we used to have alot of things to say.
but now, we're like strangers.
i don't even know what to say to you. you're the one who brought me up and take care of me when i was young. you're the one who always protect me. but looks like you cant look after me now. you have to look after my cousin. when you shifted out for the first few days, i cried to sleep because i miss you. i long to see you last time. but now? we meet only once every half a year. i was told to lie saying that dad or mum is not at home when they're actually watching tv or doing something else. each time i does that, i feel like crying out loud and just tell you the truth. i didnt know that i love you so much till that incident happen. you've grown so much older. i see lonliness and saddness in your eyes. i feel very happy when i see you smile. i love your laughter. but it seems like it's getting fewer and fewer...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY TOH JIE YI!!

finally 15, and you're older than jiao jun already!! act like a big sister within this few days before her birthday.lol. anyway, all the best in whatever you do. good luck for your Os and in your clarinet!! you're a good listener and adviser. without your advises, i would make some mistakes i should not make. one of my good friend too!


went for peixin concert band concert just now. they're GGGGGOOOOODDDDD and CCCCUUUUTTTEEE!! before that, went to work. meet up with valerie at chinese garden. zavier surprised me by showing up at my work place. thought he was joking about coming to find me today.lol. went kfc to da bao back. phillips aunty treat us to kfc, thanks alot! he went home after accompanying me buy kfc. he's really a bastard friend. he trick me into eating some kind of chinese medicine. i was damn awful.lol. knock off at 6 then saw nicholas and sihui. they thought i was at the chocolate section. went to punch my card then walk back to OG to meet them. chao xiang reached too. meet zavier at city hall station then off to peixin primary. im gonna repeat myself, they're GGGGOOOODDDDD and CCCCCUUUTTTTEEEE!!!! saw iman (pervert babi) there. he told me keith was there too. took pics together with iman and keith before heading to bukit batok for supper. laugh and crap all the way to yishun mrt station.YOU RAISE ME UP~ .took the last train home. pics will be up soon.

had band today. somethings crop up in the morning. we booked the hall, so don't bother giving us those black faces or talking behind saying the band members, we LEND you majority of the space because we know that you don't have place to train.i heard what you people said in the general office just now. your teacher in charge is a good, she understands, not like you people. band is kind of tiring today. have to play loud the whole day and we tried out march together and march at the same time, it's tiring.had short marching after band. went market to buy joey's present then off to jurong point with chao xiang, sihui and nicholas to check out the new jurong point. jiao jun and zavier went home after buying the present. the new jurong point is full of people. it's quite big also. i don't have to go down to town next time when i want to do shopping, i can just come to jurong point and it's only 10 mins walk from my house. homed at around 8.

wild wild wet pics with melissa, charmaine and yan qing.

work today and yesterday. anna was off so i work alone. crapped and talked to the stuffs over there. time don't pass fast this time. life is just so boring now. my everyday routine is wake up at 9. then work all the way till 8. reach home at 9, watch my little noyah and dinner till 10 then practice my clarinet till 11 then bathe then bed time at 12. zavier is my Bastard Friend Forver(BFF). i miss vivian goh wan ni out of a sudden.LOL!!


i hate this feeling.
result day is getting nearer. look, NEARER!
i still pin high hopes of getting up to sec 5 before that incident.
but after the incident, my confidence level dropped to zero.
though my confidence level dropped to zero, i still pin on to that 1% of moving up.
it's hard. what if i suddenly pin my hopes too high and all i get is one word 'retain' ?
i don't know what i'll do that day. will be it tears of joy or what?
i was told not to think too much, but i just cant.
something happened at home too.
a time bomb just landed at my house.
im not surprised actually. it's kind of expected? just that i don't expect it to happen so fast.

band today. meet jiaojun at the school's bus stop at 7.30. seriously, i don't even feel like getting up from my bed at all. the weather is so cooling and it's a good time to sleep all you want. only manage to drag myself up after 5 mins. everybody started to form the band formation and bring out the percussion instruments at 8. saw my number written at the white board in backstage. was fuming mad then, didn't really think much so i just scold out whatever is in my mind,lol. think back, it's really nothing. luckily nobody prank call me or something, if not i'll be punishing the everybody if nobody owns up. mayflower sec arrived at around 9 then band starts. played flight of valour, last to defence and die fledermaus. had lunch at 12.30 then back to school for sectional for 1 hour then combine practice for overture number 1 then mayflower's bus arrived. pack up then went imm for dinner with eunice, chaoxiang,nicholas and charmaine. before that, gossiped in school with joey,jiao jun and the 5 people who went for dinner. homed after that.

9 more days to result day. i don't really feel like going to school to look at it. my results are kind of out already. what's the use of going back and collect? it'll just spoil my day and maybe falling back to my depression period for one or a few day? i don't want to cry almost every night before i sleep and having swollen eyes the next day.

have been working for the past three days. time passes quite fast as there's alot of people walking pass our stall. oh ya, my working partner is called anna, not annie. have been chatting quite alot with her, madeleine and aunty alice. and and and i've learn how to cook pan cake, muah chee and pop corn. band tomorrow.

band today. woke up at 6.30 then prepare and off to school . arranged the canteen tables and chairs at around 8. mayflower sec and a few of christ church band members joined us for practice. lunch at kfc with joey,si hui,christopher, zavier, eunice and khia meng at around 12.15. had sectional while with mr tan then played the choice piece of every school then band end. sihui brought home my wallet. cabbed down to her house after that then off to meet melissa. she's a typical aunty i tell you. we reached the school at around 6.15 when the concert starts at 7.30. nicholas reached at around 7.15 then we went into their school hall while waiting for melissa's friend. overall, the band was alright. it ended at around 9.30. took 157 home with tze ying and sharon while xue ling and nicholas took other bus home. seriously, im sick and tired of working. standing 9 hrs every work day and there's only a handful of people buying our chocolates. how to catch christmas sales?

a proper update about yesterday. skip all the parts where we rush like mad for exchange and setting up our instruments asap and getting scolded by mr tan. arrived yuying earlier than all the school bands. practiced abit then the other school bands arrived. our band was the second last to perform. should not set my eye on that piece of paper. the whole thing ended at around 4+. PEI XIN PRIMARY is seriously omg! they sound alot better than all the school bands yesterday. they're so cute too!!! i was going crazy when they were performing. sax solo for 'i need to be in love' is nice!! ohh muiie godd, they aree shoo cute!! we didn't buy anything for them because mr tan said it wasn't an exchange. we're go pai sei during the gifts exchange. i didn't prepare any section gifts also. and i accidenly raise my voice when answering yuying's clarinet sl. i lost my music file. hopefully it was taken by mistake by someone. if not i'll have to print or get new scores.


work today. i was feeling very energentic. my work partner didn't come so i work alone. chatting with the other promoters was fun. sales today was not bad.

band exchange today. thought everything will went smoothly but who knows there's so many problems. got scolded by mr tan because we're not on time and only got ready at 10.10 when he wants to start the band at 10 sharp. if there's anyone to be blamed, then blame the whole band. im not trying to point finger at anyone.no point crying over spilt milk. but seriously, this is not the first time i've seen some people not doing anything when you all were given instructions by me or christopher or jiao jun. ask yourself, is it so hard to contribute to the band? don't tell me because you don't play percussion so you don't want to help out. but if a percussionist him/herself don't help out, then i think you've fail to be a percussionist. joining a band required alot teamwork. if you're so unwilling or don't want to help out, then i can say bye bye to you. i've been keeping quiet and not talk much about anything but looks like it's getting more worse? dont't force me to really scold and punish people. it won't be running 2 rounds round the quardrangle or doing 10 pumpings. that's seriously nothing. it's something i've never done so far. there's always a limit. no initiative, no team work, the band is not even bonded. if anyone thinks that it's easy being a major, just tell me. i will let you have my post and have a try. then you will know how tough it is.the teachers-in-charge is also one of a kind. forget it, i shan't say much. performance today is i-don't-know-what-word-to-use. work tomorrow, hopefully it wont be so tiring.

work today. meet up with vivian at lakeside mrt station with mum. they alight at outram station and i was left alone. was feeling damn nervous and just nice, valerie msged me. so decided to give her a call to calm myself down. work alone till around 1.30 then my working partner arrive.her name is annie if i didn't remember wrongly. she's fun to work with and she's friendly too. meet vivian at outram station after work and home together. band tomorrow, hopefully i wont doze off half way while playing music.

Goh Swee Ling is my name and my birthday falls on 1st April. i am a clarinetist of hua yi concert band and singapore wind symphony youth winds. i love monkey, chocolates and gummies. i am irritating and crazy sometimes. i treat my blog as an online diary so i post all my emotions inside. last but not least, i'm actually kidding when i say i'm pretty and adorable.


person Reached me .

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BiWei
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Cheryl
Christine
Felicia
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Olga
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